Def Con Level 4

Anxiety is at a level 10!!! I’ve haven’t felt this way in such a long time I almost forgot what it was like. Hardly sleeping, completely on edge, slightest thing sets me off, and just anxious all the time.

I’m pretty sure I know what the problem is but I don’t want to really acknowledge it. I have a pretty big decision ahead of me and I don’t want to face it.

I’ve done the usual pros and cons, and they pretty much come out even. There’s part of me that really wants to move forward and the other part thinks it’s a horrible idea.

If I’m this sick over it I really think i shouldn’t move forward, but then I worry I’m going to let a bunch of people down. And that’s truly no joke. Ugh. What to do?

If I move forward I’m afraid I’m letting myself down and if I don’t, I’m letting down others. I’m not afraid of making tough decisions. I’ve done it before and while I may get a little anxious, it’s never been this bad.

So now I’m like, is this my body’s way of saying don’t do it, or am I old and more afraid of change? I have no clue but I know I can’t keep ignoring it.

How do you handle this kind of stuff? Do you pick yourself or go with others? Am I over thinking all of it? Grrr…that’s what I hate most about anxiety, it makes you doubt yourself.

Tonight’s going to be a Tulsi and Calm kinda night. How do you handle anxiety??

Thanks for reading and responding!! ❤️ TC